Why are these almost 40 blogs so hard to get into? Ive found 3 similar blogs, dated 2003 and before, that had 2 posts them then nothing. Makes me wonder if turning 40 really is stepping into a deep dark abyss. Maybe like the movie ' Logan's Run' where they killed everyone on their 40th birthday. Well that won't happen here, I shall motivate self to post my thoughts on turning 40 just the same as I motivate self to exercise.
Thoughts are scattered all over today. I woke late and left for work with wet hair, no water or coffee or breakfast, kitchen piled high with dirty dishes, towels in dryer, laundry piled high, pretty sure left AC on, then lost my car keys. But still got a loving send off from my guy who was in a resilient mode this morn thank God, unscathed from my flitting around like an insane person. Wish could say my lateness was a result of a night of passion but truth is I was just so peacefully asleep I couldn't get out of bed at 6:15 am.
Arrive to work late wondering why I want to be here at all. I think 'they' are trying to get me to go on disability. Something I'd welcome in 6 years after I get 20 in. Thats another topic. Had lunch at panera with my
SKIRT magazine. When got back to desk ripped off an email to
Nancy Alexander of Mix 100.7. Here's what I sent --
nancy@tampabaysmix.com
date
Apr 7, 2008 2:00 PM
subject
your SKIRT magazine quote
I am 39 and listened to you eons ago when you were "nancy in the sky" on Q105, then over the years always admired your career moves and thought you were one cool lady. But then today on my hour lunch as I sat at Panera reading SKIRT TAMPA BAY I was almost personally hurt by your words , "its a groovy thing to have people come up to you and tell you you're doing good job. someone who works in a bank doesnt get that". How do you know?! It's one thing to be proud and happy with your existence and tell the world how great you have it, but no need to put others down while doing it assuming they couldnt possibly be as equally happy or appreciated in their careers as you. I can't believe you said that for print! Not everyone has such a great career as you! And dont bother with an on air apology, Ive been deaf since age 23 and don't listen to the radio. But I do read most every publication Tampa Bay has to offer. Have a great day.Sheesh. Is PMS getting me already? Really though, her quote had gall. Anyway, Ive also been reading a lot on this
trail journal site. Can you believe some people (all ages it seems) take month long, year long hikes?! I'm gobbbling up these journals online from people hiking the Appalachian and American Discovery Trails. I'm following
Jodi's hike daily as she is fundraising for
NF along the way. I'm dying with jealosy. If not for these disabilities am cursed with the idea of hiking acoss America for 6 to 9 month is very appealing! Why why why Me!!!!!!!!! :)) that felt good. Wouldn't it be ironic if my work forced me to go on disability due to my shaky walking and then I took off for a year (or 2 lol) and walked from FL to California? Not in the plans but an amusing thought.
ok, how am I doing on the goals I set? Well still love sweet coffee and not even sure if realistically could give it up, Im 'cutting back' for now, and not drinking on empty stomach. I walked on treadmill once last week! I'll aim for twice this week ;) But, went to Bally 3 times last week and my legs do feel stronger. I signed off my half of the house Friday so am now a 'renter' and one step closer to being a real homeowner. I'll have 39k in savings after pay off my credit card debt this week . So my short term goal is to not dip into that AT ALL as it's for a down payment on a future house with Bill. Right at the moment my biggest dilemma is what to do with the EXTRA cinnamon roll Panera gave me at lunch ;)
